I have always been self conscious.  I try to look beyond, what is out there.  I try not to pass judgement as they have passed on to me.  I do not understand why I feel insecure.  Is this the human condition we cherish so much? We seek lifestyles that are not fit for our souls.  I sit here and wonder, how we got here.  Ponder the meaning of this life filled with lots of sorrow and pain.

When will I succeed being contempt with myself and God.  Will this struggle continue forever.   I often wonder does God see me as an evil or bad person.  I wonder do I see my self in that manner.  Is that the kind of person I want to be.  How does one be cold to the world without become cold themselves.

I am at worlds ends.


Love,

Salem