Stressed out

It been almost three months since I've blogged and there is no short coming in dilemmas that I'm facing. The question I ask is, should one be selfish and look after their own well being or should one consider the feelings of others at all times this is a huge dilemma for I have tough myself to caring. There are disadvantages and advantages to my dilemma, which I should proceed to reveal now. I have two choice I can choose to not be selfish and go with an original plan set out with a few of my trusted and good friends and move in a three bedroom apartment that is relatively far away from work. I have been unemployed for several years now due to various reason. Now that I'm back to the workforce the issue is that I need to retain this job to live unlike previous years where it was optional for me to work due to various reason that are irrevelant to my current dilemma. So should i choose to move very close to work, such as a walking distance away, since I lack transportation or should I consider the original plan. Although I could save money on rent, the other advantage is that if anything should happen as a lay off it be easier for me to pay for rent in that case with any money i save. The disadvantage is well limited privacy and the length that I have to car pool to work. Not to mention that its taking longer than I expected for this plan to follow through. Which brings me to my real issue the internal battle of the human soul and human emotion. Fear, fear that I will fail at being able to provide for myself, and unlike most who have their family to fall back on that is not an option for me as I lack that connection for now over 10 years. I wouldn't know how to contact anyone that could help or provide such help such as helping me live until I am back to solid ground.

I suppose this is where we are all connected when we feel that our creator is playing the biggest game and you wonder why, and you just hope that even though one might feel that, that you are given all the right tools to rise against all odds. Anyways I'm sure this post is sufficient in length and I will sleep on it. Gladly like all post it has help ease the mind a bit, plus i'm tired.