Undying Memory

Haven't you heard they say "When you think about someone, that you have had no contact with in many years that they are thinking about you too".  I try not to go on archeology explorations of my past, for those mountains are to large for me to excavate through, and far to dangerous. Yet it happens that the mind often makes expedition without permission.  We let our guard down and although painful the experience is human.

That someone he is named Matthew at the time a youth so beautiful of light semi bronzed stoned skin, a shaved head and his radiant blue azure eyes.  His eyes could peer into my soul, and I still remember you.  Have you remembered me as of late? Two days have you filled my mind, or is it my heart yearning.  Yearning for something that has past long ago. This I do not know, but the though of you always brings a smile despite the decade old memory, as grainy as it may be I still can feel your touch, hear your laugh, and if my impact was not as great as your was mine.  This I'm telling to you, I'm here, and despite my foolishness you will always have a piece of my heart.  As days pass if I happen to run across your mind.  Forgive me! forgive me for pushing you away, I feel that I made you feel unwanted, as though the new experiences that you had discovered were wrong.  I was not prepared to receive your love.  The life that run through my veins pray that you're love rains on the one who has proven their worth, and next time my heart feels for you.  The pain that stabs at the heart will no longer stab, but will fade into a memory of my love for you.