I Find It! April 28/08

It's easy to die, to end your life, that realization came to me today. I never stopped to think about how easy it is to give it all up. Living, is the difficult part of life, learning how to go through life, through the many changes. Adepting, is not an easy task for most of us, for some we learn quickly conforming. I ask my self where do i fit in, in the great circle, picture or call it what you will of things. I can't find that answer and although most would say that is the search for the meaning of life, I disagree I don't want to know my purpose but want to know where, what path is the right one. Who cares what my purpose is anyways I like my life as it is at this very moment. So why the deep thoughts you might ask. Well because I have failed to change certain aspect of my self and I say to myself "Maybe I'm not trying as hard as I thought" but it sure dosen't feel that way.